It worries me, because, I'm only concerned with my present problem, and have no sympathy to the tribulations of the past. I'm only concerned with the now, and if tomorrow will be warmer. You see what I might be getting at? How I'm totally devaluing the things of yesteryears.
It was sort of a defense mechanism, in-built and subconscious. I don’t really know how it wipes out my memories, but there are just certain things I don't remember. Some of fear I actually got them wrong, or simply because it’s over and done with. I'm not gonna be a super-sensitive freak who's so sure of himself because of what I went thru at this period of time to the next. No, I'm just who I am now, no past, uncertain future. Now is all that is tangible to me. I can almost reach out and touch it.
Next off, thanks to vien, I know I made you worry unnecessarily.. and I know its just a stupid blog. Even if you don't think it’s much, thanks for actually giving me concern, when I was just screaming out for attention, I'm attention starved, and it pains me the wreck I ought to be, or am. But I’m not, well, just if you (the rest of you) think I am. I'm alive and well. Blogs are meant to be two-dimensional. You'll have to take my word for it.
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